My Bad

Woken up early in the morning,labor pains of my head made me gonna mad...i thought it was the effect of the wine last night...i opened my pc as usual and dear was dy there and she called me...we met a while...maybe the the webcam was blur so she did't find i was crying...before the call i was thinking a lot of problems between us...''why we looked like fren more than like couple?'',''why our talking was getting less and less?'',''why i could't feel a strong love from you?''...afterward,i told you the problems that i faced...and you mad,angry,worrying,suffering...i felt regret to tell all these,i really did't wish you to worry to suffer!!i wished i could hide all the problem to hurt me rather than hurt you...you scolded me selfish,bcos i care your feelings more than mine!was my fault?or i really used wrong way to protect you?sorry la dear,i knew i had promised you but i did't think that i really could tell you everything what i suffer...i'm sorry...but i hope we still could hold it for long time...=(