Sorry No Cure

I think you have found that our relationship has recently become increasingly serious~is I am not understand you~almost quarreling every day since you said you want to work for 6 years~and I said I might change my heart~because I really do not have the confidence that can wait so long~I found you changed~we almost zero conversation~this may be my fault~I can not stand if you do not care how I feel~this is probably our different views of love~I thought we are going to separate~my heart is deeply pain~also cried a lot~I think you are same too~every argument,which one is not my first apology?I called you dear so i must treat you good~this is my promise,I was pretending in front of friends but was found by carmen~I am really useless~you still do not understand me~every time test you in the chatting~but you played with me~do you know I'm angry?but I found that I was wrong,in fact,we do not know each other~I am very sad if I am used to forget your pass~you really do not know how deep i love you~substitute are always a substitute~I think this is only what I can do~leave even though I really love you~but if I am not?how do you think?can you let me know accurately?I do not want to guess anymore~let us to clam down these days~is good for us,I do not want to see you say ''I'm sorry'' nor to mention break up~I wait for your reply...

No Way

Why?why?why is getting worse now...i know ur heart is like pushing by a stone...bcos if that i feel guilty to you...i'm really sorry...sorry for breaking the promise,sorry for hurting you,sorry i dun hv the determination...i know this time u must be crying badly but i can do nothing again,bcos i noe reassuring you is useless...i will never know wat you'r thinking...i really wish you will not continue it...i really cannot extend till the period...i wish u can know my situation...=( and maybe i should calm 1st...

What's wrong?

What's wrong with us?why will be like this condition?i'm confusing,i'm sad,i'm crying...dun us dy promise b4?can't find out the problems or dun wish to face if find out?blog dy become the garden for me to write wat is in my mind...alone for so long for us,do u think to give up b4?i admit,i do think b4,and many times...i'm sorry...

Boring Day

Today was very boring>.< acc my friends to CC,haiz~they were still like children,18~20yrs old dy still played counter strike>.< and today was gonna tired!!class ended at 7pm!after class went to eat...and i juz realize that i was very BAD!i almost forgot my dear dy=( when i walked home,dear text me then i juz remember her...T.T~so sorry dear...and i also forgot to help you to buy ur things>.<forgive me ba...bcos today i followed those fan chiong friends...haha^^but i was missing you in my HEART not only in my mind...hehe^^

Mr J & Carmen

Today,nothing special,but had a topic to make fun of carmen...haha~since this mr.j seemed fancy our carmen,kena caught by us,so we decided to make fun of carmen...lol~but this fan chiong carmen did't know abt this matter,so that we could play 99...LOL~when i told her that mr.j fancy her,she shocked!!come on la ah moi,or you wanted he fancy guy you will feel normal??=.= and i advised you sue carmen aka angelina's mouth,dun cubit my bobo again!!i knew that time was my fault,but i was not purposely 1..*and u all dun think too much we got nothing...>.<

My Bad

Woken up early in the morning,labor pains of my head made me gonna mad...i thought it was the effect of the wine last night...i opened my pc as usual and dear was dy there and she called me...we met a while...maybe the the webcam was blur so she did't find i was crying...before the call i was thinking a lot of problems between us...''why we looked like fren more than like couple?'',''why our talking was getting less and less?'',''why i could't feel a strong love from you?''...afterward,i told you the problems that i faced...and you mad,angry,worrying,suffering...i felt regret to tell all these,i really did't wish you to worry to suffer!!i wished i could hide all the problem to hurt me rather than hurt you...you scolded me selfish,bcos i care your feelings more than mine!was my fault?or i really used wrong way to protect you?sorry la dear,i knew i had promised you but i did't think that i really could tell you everything what i suffer...i'm sorry...but i hope we still could hold it for long time...=(

Wine To Solve

Do you think tat our relation has changed?change to wat stage i'm still confusing...we juz be couple less than 2 months,but i can feel that~we have got less n less topic to talk n chat...i hate this feeling =( can we get it better?how we get it better?or must happen some worse things juz can show the goods?i wish to solve every problem rather than let it be until the end~all is ruined...i dun like u r not concentrate when chatting wif me...i'm impatient, sometime i'm juz pretending but do you know?is really love you too much will cause you less caring about me?if it's really like that i wish that u dun care anything about me..i wont appreciate such alms!i'm sorry...T.T of cos i know u love me,but i really less feel that 'love'...maybe i'm over the expectation...i did say before,nothing wrong would cause because of you,but~haiz.....juz lets wine to solve...